goals

It's December 3rd and, given the title, I've somewhat failed at my goal to write consistently for 30 days. However, I am accomplishing the result of wanting to begin the challenge and that is to write more, develop more consistency, try different ways of writing and seeing what happens. It's very hard to write every … Continue reading goals →

depression

My depression is like when my skin feels like a prison. It's boney fingers clasp around my ankles and drag me down so far the only voice I can hear is hers. She's a bitch. She's married to anxiety and together, we enjoy threesomes. and then sometimes its like maybe this is fine. I met … Continue reading depression →

music

I grew up around music. My dad was always wandering around the house singing Ted Nugent songs. Our TV rotated between cartoons, MTV and CMT (the country version of MTV). My mom would blare Queen whenever it came onto the radio of our old, brown, Buick LeSabre. My brother would introduce me to the sounds … Continue reading music →

time

I walk between worlds accumulating outliers that drift on outskirts closer to the center, than I can reach on my own. Confirm my normality, embrace the dissonance of the configuration that compiles this shape of human. I'm an east coast sunrise, an erratic display of golden light dancing on the Atlantic, and the skies extraordinary … Continue reading time →

[archived] the ship iv

The past few days have been busy with family time over the holiday. Regretably, I haven't been able to write, however today, I have delivered the 4th installment of The Ship. If you're new to the story, you can catch up by with Parts I, II, and III. ******** We had been meandering for a … Continue reading [archived] the ship iv →

sunlight

For years, I was prisoner in a cell that wasn't locked. I held on desperately, to the shackles given to me as justification of anger, and of bitterness. I held everyone accountable for every trespass, and sin made against and to me. I screamed for justice! Because how could someone treat someone as insignificant, and … Continue reading sunlight →

teachers, poe and bradbury

The moment I fell in love with Edgar Allen Poe was the same moment I fell in love with Ray Bradbury. It was my senior year in high school and I was taking every literature class my school offered. This was American Literature taught by a shorter, nerdy looking man, with coke bottle glasses and … Continue reading teachers, poe and bradbury →

[archived] the ship iii

Another page in the world of The Ship. What will learn about Jade and her world today? If you haven't already, I implore you to read Part I and Part II of this series. ******** I woke up the next morning and headed to the bridge. I was greeted by Opal, my copilot. I met … Continue reading [archived] the ship iii →

having a REAL job

I've had a lot of jobs since I entered the workforce when I was 16. I've worked everything from fast food to evictions, to tech support. I struggle immensely with working and I'm sure I'm not alone. It isn't that I don't like to work, it's that I feel like every job I have is … Continue reading having a REAL job →

existential purposes

My breath lingers in the frozen air, and snow dampens the noise. I contemplate what it means to be. I guess that's the question, didn't Shakespeare say? I don't know what I want anymore. I'm cornered between, finding purpose, and accepting the possibility that, maybe there isn't any. Someone asked me isn't that a liberating … Continue reading existential purposes →