I live in dichotomies and reflect on the mile stone of reaching another decade around the sun. I feel old and then I don't feel old enough. I listen to jazz like a good intellectual and say things like Miles is so existential and I want to punch myself in the face when those words vomit … Continue reading starting 30
validation
I joined a dating site (again) because I'm bored and a masochist, apparently. This morning I had the pleasure of speaking with Drew. Drew asked me a couple questions about the software engineering degree I'm pursuing, whether or not I was at work and who this man is in one of the Instagram pictures on … Continue reading validation
signs
I think a lot about this sign, I saw in a coffee shop. And I think about that coffee shop and how everyone inside looked like a social media influencer but seemed to lack anything genuine and I know, I'm being judgmental about people I don't know and a place I went to once but … Continue reading signs
dating
I like dating because I like pretending I'm the person I wish I was. I like to see how long I can keep the facade before I crack under my self imposed perfection. I like playing a role of the charming curvaceous redhead with electric eyes and musical laughs. I like to think my social … Continue reading dating
a hawk by the road
I saw a hawk today. At first I thought it was an owl. because I never see owls and I'm low key obsessed for the day my owl sighting occurs. When I got closer though, it was obvisouly a hawk. I wondered How did I know what a hawk was. As in, when did I … Continue reading a hawk by the road
electricity
I have a long list of lovers I consider in the hindsight of nostalgia. I think about the tiny moments that are shared between souls when it feels like the rest of the world fades away. I am the star I my personal collection of romantic scenes. Drunken bare feet dancing in spare rooms of … Continue reading electricity
auspicious winters
The hour between 4 and 5 in January in Michigan is my favorite moment of everyday. If the suns out anyway, because if we're blessed with a clear sky in winter, at 4 o clock gold kisses the naked trees and radiates from buildings in contrast to elongated shadows drifting lazily across the ground. I … Continue reading auspicious winters
cowledge
I forget my headphones literally every time I have to go to class. The last 3 times I've been on campus, I have bought new headphones just so I can leave them at home again because past Jen, is an inconsiderate ass hole. I have 4 pairs or working headphones and one would assume I'd … Continue reading cowledge
coffee shops
Coffee shops act as my sanctuary these days because I'm hopelessly addicted to the smell of the coffee shop. I like when coffee burns down my throat like I'm drinking molten lava. It's sort of how whiskey feels when you drink that on summer days by a river with the smell of lake water perfuming … Continue reading coffee shops
hello 2019
{insert obligatory New Year Eve's post} Let's set the scene before we begin. It's 30 degrees outside and snow has covered the ground. I'm in the living room of my father's house with the leftover vomit of Christmas and even the fake tree, looks tired. On the speakers, I'm spinning my latest obsession, Chet Baker. … Continue reading hello 2019
